I will always be my biggest critic. I will think people are saying something that they probably aren’t.
I’m not that important.
Society puts so much blame on other people, but just think, for a minute. When you look in the mirror, what do you say to yourself? Is it as bad as what somebody has actually said to you?
Probably not.
I don’t know about you, but I feel like I have to do things because I’m not the skinniest. I have to use the stairs. I can’t eat the donut. I can’t eat chocolate. I can’t do something for the fear that someone will think ‘well she’s fat so of course she does/doesn’t that’.
I’m my biggest fat shammer.
I put myself on a standard that’s different because I’m afraid of people saying ‘well it’s because..’. I’m like that in many parts of life, I don’t do things because I know I’m stronger than my weakness or struggle.
I don’t want anything to define me.
But, in the hopes of not letting people define me I define myself.
I’m not the skinniest girl. I don’t have to always use the stairs. I can eat the donut.
I can do whatever I want I don’t have to not do something for fear of the definition people will give me. I put all these unnecessary standards and expectations instead of living my life the best way I can, doing the things that are best for me.
We should all give ourselves a break every now and again that’s for sure.
It’s definitely so important to love ourselves and our bodies – sometimes, showing that love and that grace is by having the donut or by not taking the stairs and it’s totally OK!
X,
Cristina
cristinawashere.com
Too often, we become our biggest critic and our biggest shamer. We set “high standards” for ourselves which are usually impossible to reach, and then we put ourselves down when we fail to reach them. Why do we do this to ourselves? I have no idea, but I know it’s not healthy, and we should quit doing that as much as we should quit smoking. Self-shaming is a difficult habit to break that’s for sure, but not impossible. You can train your mind to think better of yourself, just as you have trained to put yourself down. The moment you start loving yourself, exactly as you are right now, you’ll be able to live healthier and be happier.